no one ever said they would tell the truth

I won't repeat everything said in this blog, but I will show you the video that started the high fructose conversation that I'd like to keep going.



And I'd like to direct your attention to this awesome site

Now that you're up to speed...firstly, we don't watch tv, so I had no idea this was going on in the advertising world. But what this got me thinking about was the small changes we're trying to make in our house.

And I thought this was a good opportunity to get into what I talked about in this previous post. We've cut out high fructose corn syrup, all refined sugar and flour from our diet. We're committed to getting up early every morning to work out. Walk/runs and strength training to start...and eventually working back into running and full weight training. I know it will be a process. It always is and I always get discouraged because it doesn't happen easy for us. Nothing "melts off before your eyes"

A long time ago, I messed up my metabolism to the degree that my body has a very hard time letting go of the stored fat...ever. But as discouraged as I've been in the past, this time...it isn't "different" that's lame. This time, it's like I don't care about losing weight.
Really.

We cut out the bad stuff a few months ago. Not being strict if we went out to eat, but never buying anything with hfcs, eating alot of fresh fruit and veggies and keeping the refined stuff (flour) to only once a week if at all. I got off birth control, getting rid of false hormones in my body - that's a whole other post though. And then a week or two ago, we committed to the working out thing, and I decided to not drink alcohol at all during the week.

I feel. Good. I'm sleeping, but more than that, I'm dreaming again which hasn't happened in a very long time. I don't think I'm losing any weight. But it's alright. I feel better, and better everyday.

I'm telling you all this, not because I want the accountability, it's not like you're going to check up on me or anything. I guess I just want to say it out loud. I'm not happy with the weight I am. I know there are things I did that f**ked it up a long time ago, and I know that I'm an adult and it's my responsibility to care what I put into my body.

Of course I want to lose weight, who wouldn't? But not to be skinny or gorgeous. I want to feel energized, enjoy life, live longer, being healthy is what's important. It's not a fad. It's a way of life. Cheesy, I know. But honestly. That's what I want. To live a better life.

And also. I want to be lovely. Just lovely.